Sunday is for being soft.
Well, it is a new luxury for me.
If you’re not a brunch cook on the line, or a waiter at Cracker Barrel on a Sunday afternoon.
But for me, Sunday has become a way to reconcile with my week.
It softens the edges of my trials and toils.
I reflect on my week and I gain courage to take on another one.
Today, like most days, is a day I allow myself to live in a lot of grace for my mistakes,
and for my bad attitude,
my hectic mind racing back and forth, seemingly between to entirely different states.
Yes, this is a luxury.
I picked up a jar of homemade fig and strawberry jam from the farmer’s market.
So, I made Sunday biscuits.
As I pulled them out, I observed how much they had risen and inhaled deeply the browning butter sizzling under the crispy, brown bottom.
It’s the small things, really.
I set out a couple of eggs on my board and thought they looked beautiful.
Today, is the day I feed myself.
After spending my weeks cooking for the general public, I also cook for the people I hold a little closer, and I try to treat them like jewels. Because our weeks and months grow long, and they are also fast. I like to give myself to these treasures. I like them to slow down for a minute and listen to them speak from their hearts.
Maybe something wine induced, and maybe the smell of tomatoes and fresh bread helps, too.
Someone recently called me a healer.
No, I do not claim to have magical powers, nor can I own up to that term every day.
Only the idea is that all of our words and actions carry their own weight.
The weight I choose to put on my words and actions are heavy.
We are all capable of being healers.
I try, anyways, to not tear down people’s worlds. I will maybe try to pry a board loose, but I also know that it’s a delicate action, to restructure. To bend and not break.
Sunday is for healing.
It is for dusting off tools.
The ones that I use to breathe deeply from my belly when I feel as though I’m carrying a cannonball.
They are the tools that allow me to keep going, to keep recognizing my own strength and maybe, allow me to show you your own.
I know you are afraid of what you don’t know or understand. It makes you feel weak and defenseless. But that’s not you.
Recognizing your strength.
Embracing the gravity that works against your body.
Letting ideas and motions flow through you. Permeable. Osmosis-like.
That is all we can do, some days.
Cut some butter into flour.
Watch them rise and sizzle and brown.
Soft butter. Warm jam.
Pour a cup of coffee.
And feed yourself.