it’s starting to feel like spring, here —
warm with dreams of hot crawfish dumped on a table and
I smell it heavy in the air driving home past the big vats of them,
soaking in that spicy water:
garlic, cayenne, celery (and loads and loads of salt)
a hell broth that reminds of the times I learned about Jesus.
It is far away, sometimes.
Everything lately has been LOUD.
With the sounds of guns,
with the sadness of losing my uncle to cancer.
But I’ve planted some seeds, didn’t you know?
I’m watching them grow. They are wispy like the hairs
on the tip-top of my head.
Every season is renewal.
Of dying and growing.
Of being thankful,
and often times full of sorrow.
You meet us there, in that field.
I read that once in a poem.
I imagine you there always,
some great peace in the midst of all the grinding
and working wheels and decaying dark things.
I see the seeds I’ve planted starting to burst out of the ground,
because the conditions were just right.
I can’t help but feel so green and raw with them,
hanging on for dear life because it is always so new!
Whatever it is we feel, it’s always something new.
But honestly, what I really want right now?
Peace, mostly. In my heart and for everything,
but actually, if I’m being true to this one moment,
I want to rip open a flimsy brown bag full of steamy hot crawfish
and wipe the sweat from my forehead.